A blog that shall focus on the internal struggles of me, a depressed, introverted, cancer riddled, lonely, and exhausted artist who still cant find himself well into his 30's. Dragging himself through life for the sake of others who might miss him when hes gone, even if he wouldn't miss himself. Who puts on a mask every day to hide his faults as best he can, to internalize his darkness, and to bind his heart which yearns for a connection with a friend and lover.